Back on the Bandwagon

I am starting to feel disgusted when I look at myself in the mirror and lets not start talking about how I feel when I get on the scale. Instead of seeing the numbers go down, they are holding steady… worse yet they may even possibly be starting to creep back up. I’m nearing the end of the “nine months on, nine months off” rule and I still have 15 lbs to go to reach the weight that I was back when I got pregnant… and another 10 lbs in addition to that to be where I would really like to be… where I was 6 months prior to getting pregnant.
I know that I shouldn’t be so harsh on myself… I am by no means overweight and still (just barely) fall within the healthy BMI range… but I am the heaviest now that I ever was and despite the fact that the weight came on due to being pregnant, it bothers me. It bothers me that a few months ago I was on track and losing weight, I had a goal and was taking strides to reach it. But then came the holidays and my will power left me.
I also think that becoming a SAHM has negatively affected my weight loss. I no longer had to fit back into my work pants and I wear sweats or yoga pants most days. It’s hard to feel uncomfortable when the pants stretch with you. =)
So I’ve made a deal with myself… I will try harder so that when my brother gets married in Florida in November I will be ready for my little 2 piece!! Ok, so I want to be ready for that already this summer so I can go get tan at the lake with Noah, but that’s wishful thinking.
I have 25 pounds I want to lose. I joined yesterday- it’s very similar to WW, but free and with (at least I think so) more features. I walked for 1 1/4 hours yesterday and am gettting ready to do so again today. I’m wearing a pedometer so that I can track how much I’m walking… to make me more active. There was a time when I was working retail that I walked 7-10 miles a day… in the store alone!! I’ve told myself that I’m not going to put on the comfy pants until Ray comes home – until then it’s jeans or other “real” clothes. I’m setting a realistic (I think) goal of losing 1 to 2 pounds per week. I know that I can’t lose more than that, because I’m still nursing and I want to keep that up.
So here I am… day 2 of the new -working my way to a slimmerand healthier- me. I’ll keep you updated!