An Apology

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My dearest Heiney,

I’m am writing this to apologize – I have treated you terribly in the past few months. I will try my best to make it up to you if you let me. Let me just explain what happened…

It all started one day (or night) last November. I didn’t know that it happened until a month later. You see dear Heiney, I was pregnant. It made me hungry, so very hungry. I was not cursed with morning sickness like so many others were, so that meant that I started to gain weight sooner.

It was gradual at first, a few pounds here… a few there. It seemed to distribute itself evenly throughout. I was not too concerned that you would be harmed. I know how much appearance means to you – you loved the compliments that you would receive. It always made the twins up north jealous. They enjoyed the new attention they were receiving. You see they started to grow first due to the added pounds.

Then Belly grew, but lets admit it – you and I both knew that would happen. And week after week, month after month I kept gaining. I never knew just how much you were growing, due my increasing inability to see you (or anything else below Belly). It wasn’t until right before I lost the belly and had the baby that I saw the first faint lines – those tears in you that scarred your appearance.

I was in denial though and thought it was scratch marks due to dry skin. I’m so sorry my dearest Heiney that I did not recognize it sooner, that I let you expand so much that you would stretch and tear. I have let you down. Everyone else came out unscathed – all but you. I know that you took one for the team and that you think that because you are always covered no one will know, but I can see that you are hurt. Not to mention Mr. Hemm and Ms. Roid have told me so.

Please accept my apology and know that I will do my best to keep you out of harms way and not hurt you again next time I get pregnant.

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This post was originally published on October 17th, 2008. I decided to re-post it, since I’m not really able to write anything that would make sense right now (hello sinus pressure!). I’m hoping that by taking it easy this weekend (thank you honey for helping me!!) I will be back to my normal self soon!! =)
Just to let you know – no body parts have been harmed (yet) during this pregnancy! I’m hoping that it stays that way in these last 10 weeks too!!

7 thoughts on “An Apology”

  2. Alyssa

    Hehehehehe…I’m glad you reposted this; I missed it the first time around. Could I have read it and not remember???

    Get well soon.

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